For those of you who don't live in Mommy World, FuzziBunz are environmentally friendly cloth diapers that prevent diaper rash. Up until our son was born, my husband and I had every intention of using them. We care about the environment, and we wanted the best for our child. Yet, when we returned home from the hospital, we never made the move from disposable to cloth. We were in survival mode, and we chose to take the easy way out and stick with disposable diapers and wipes.
This morning, as my son and I were getting ready for an Easter party, I found myself getting flustered and anxious. I just knew that every mom at this party would have her child in FuzziBunz, and here would be my child in an environmentalists nightmare, disposable diapers. Thoughts such as, "Well, maybe I could just take him out to the car and change him", popped in my head. To top it off, this party was to be hosted by a friend of a friend, meaning I would know maybe one or two people there. I am not really good in these situations, especially post baby because I always seem too distracted to make small talk.
This self-doubt and social anxiety went on for about half an hour, until I looked up to see my son watching me. And then I had my mommy epiphany. I realized that I needed to scrap the feelings of inferiority and go the that party with confidence. And I did just that. My son ended up hanging on to my leg for dear life the entire time, but that's for another post.